She hurt herself today

She hurt herself again today
That fallen angel took the blade
She drove it deep into her fresh pale skin
I watched as the blood seeps from her skin
I cant seem to reach and clear up the mess she made

She hurt herself again today
Took that rusted blade once more
Cut into that same wound
Made it new and bled on the kitchen floor
The angel cleared up that mess and hoped never to make it again

Two weeks had past
But today she hurt herself again
Took the razor to her wrist
She prayed for forgiveness
But she had gone to deep
Her wound will never heal
She wont ever cry from the pain
I hope that angel is now happy
At peace with herself

I hurt myself today
I knew what I had done
I’ve started out how that fallen angel began
I took that rusty blade
Dragged the pain into my swollen vein
I don’t want to…
I don’t want it to end this way…
I don’t want to die from this pain

I hurt myself again today
I swore I’d stop
But every time I think of that beautiful angel
I cant help but think of what she did
And now I’m in the same place
Its started again
Right from the begin

I stopped today
I didn’t make the pain
I kept strong and made it all go away
Now everything is good
If my life turns to shit I don’t depend on that blade
I don’t need it to rip away my fears
I don’t need it to make a mess on the kitchen floor
“Just keep calm”
I tell myself
“everything will be ok”
“don’t fall into that same trap”
“don’t kill yourself for a small meaningless thing”

She’ll never hurt herself again today
Nor will she any other day
Because now she’s gone
I’m still here
don’t make yourself go down that winding path
Keep safe and stay alive
Fight to make all things right